I have very mixed emotions about this. I am excited about getting to meet our child(ren) earlier than expected, and about getting to see Ethiopia twice. I am really not worried about the money. I know God will provide the extra $5000 or so that it will take for a second trip.
However, what I am really struggling with is having to leave Lilli at home twice in about two months. I know she will be fine and she has great grandparents and other family members that will dote on her and spoil her rotten, but I am going to miss her. I am also struggling with how difficult it will be to leave our child(ren) for 3-6 weeks. I am sure that saying that goodbye will be one of the hardest things I will ever do. How do you explain to your child you've only known for 5 days that you're leaving them?
So anyway, I know everything will be fine and work out, but for now I am still processing....
I feel the same way. We've only left Eli one night - and that was for a surgery I had to have. He struggled. Didn't sleep much. I was already dreading leaving him for a week. And, now knowing I'm leaving him for two weeks is disheartning. Fortunately, the second time I will probably go to Ethiopia alone, so at least he will have Ben at home. I mulled it over all day yesterday, but then decided I can't worry about it. God's known this all along. I'm just praying now that I know (either through blog land or in person) someone who will travel the same time as me the second trip.
ReplyDeleteAnd, having to leave your child after spending five days with them? Kind of like having your heart ripped out. I'm going to need a lot of strength for that.
I found your blog from the Gladney FBI blog list. We're at the same stage in the process and I'm having the exact same thoughts you are! We're praying hard for everyone involved!
ReplyDeleteAww, sweetie. I'll be praying for you and you're child(ren). As for Lilli, I know she'll be in amazing hands. We've only left Kelsey for 3 days but it is hard, but will get easier. I'll keep you in my prayers. How long are you gone? And do you know an approximate of when?
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